Hiding from the pain

Over the past couple of days, I have spent a lot of time feeling angry at my in-laws for not phoning which made me feel like they didn’t care; when they did call, their explanation that they had been too upset to call only angered me more. Today, I feel like I have been using that anger as a shield for my own grief and hiding behind it; as my anger starts to ebb away with the realisation that it was really just tactlessness and not deliberate thoughtlessness, the pain and longing for my dad is now beginning to emerge.