Feeling numb

I don’t think that it has really sunk in yet that Dad has gone. I spend most of my time feeling fairly numb to be honest, or feeling tired. It tends to sink in a little more at night when most of the family have left and then I have a bit of a cry, but during the day, I find myself wandering around, not really knowing what to do with myself. I’m dreading the next time I have to go into a hospital with a client because I think it will all come back to me at that point.